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Posted Thursday, October 18, 2012 // 9:50 pm
So hard
 Schooling is really hard. Adults tend to think it is easy cause their work cause them white hairs but youngsters really do get white hair too. Really. Every few weeks, I have my godmum check my hair to spot any whites hiding between the blacks. And I force anyone who found one to pluck it out. And when they don't because apparently if I pluck one out, "it will grow five more". Really, bitch, what have your mother been scaring you with? School work itself is an additional chore to the daily lessons. I mean, I already have to hear your awful voice for two hours, why must I be affiliated with you after hours with a document? It's so tough. I guess I'm being whiny over here right now. But life is hard. Like, HARD. It's so much harder than I imagined it to be five years ago, or maybe even just last year. Look at what was going on last year, I thought O levels is going to be the toughest shit ever. And fast forward to me right now, struggling to maintain a good GPA to survive a further education in Singapore. And last year, I had guidance from everyone, teachers, friends, and even classmates that I am barely acquaintance with. Now my teachers transformed into cold-hearted lecturer who hardly bothers to reply, much less care about my basic education well-being. My friends all proceeded to study subjects I have absolutely no knowledge of. And everybody knows about what happens to the classmates I am not close to, I never got close to them. Now I'm on my own, figuring out everything and every problem on my own. Cause in just one year's time, I am old enough to handle all shits to be thrown in my way. I can't rely on my classmates for fear they might steal my ideas. My lecturers would just say, "You decide, this is your project. Follow the guidelines lah. Any more questions? Should be no more right? All in guideline anyway." Life is just going to get harder and harder huh? Don't worry, this is not my emo post in which I post and proceed to cut my wrist over stress. I am not that crazy or that insensitive to the people who cares about me even when they don't tell me often. I would bend but I would never break. I would never bring myself that far. I can't take life seriously when it gets so random all the time, one moment I have the best year and the next the worst. I have been sighing non-stop these days. Life is so bloody tough. I really need to cry for some help one point or another. Soon enough, soon enough. Labels: poly, school is killing me |