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 ♥ My name is Alicia. I go by ALMIGHTYALICIA on the net. musings
I adore loud stuff and bright colours. I am a HUGE movie buff. I also spend half my life watching various TV shows. I practically worship the Moon. And I like observing the clouds.
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Posted Sunday, January 20, 2013 // 1:36 am
Adrenaline and achievement
 I have pretty happy about that, cause that just means more time for my movie watching. I have 39 movies in my computer, and 1 more Oscar'13 nominee to go, which is Django Unchained. But I feel like watching that in the cinemas cause of Quentin Tarentino and poor Leonardo Dicaprio. I plan to watch Girls and I am already halfway through my stash of Portlandia. If you don't understand what I am saying, let's just say I am watching television. I never want to explain my love for Hollywood because people don't seem to be able to grasp the whole idea of me watching such shows and yet being in Chinese Media & Communication at the same time. And I am not that good at expressing what I am passionate about. So I just skip the entire explaining process. It's just not worth it since people just eventually project the baffled face onto me. Sigh, I just realised I have my translation test. I not in need of the module and things get worse when the teacher just sucks in general, so I am learning nothing on something I have already self-taught. If there is a sound for a cry for help, it's the sound waves coming from your computer/laptop now. I figured my 2013 resolution. I would need to act, because I feel so uneasy without my biggest outlet. I really miss the whole escape and sheer devotion into one character who accompanies you for like 2 months at least. It's what I do to feel complete because acting is my first love. All I want to do in life is act. Because I love acting, so I want to act. It's what stuck with me when I first discovered myself as an actor, and it never changed throughout the years. I would also want to read John Green's books. I would probably audio-hear it first but yeah, I want to get in touch with John Green's writing and appreciate him from a point of viewer of an avid reader than an admiring tumblr user. Lastly, I want to rid my insecurities of being mediocre. Because I give myself so little credit for everything I have achieved so far. I do "praise" myself out loud a lot, but my tone is always joking. I never took myself seriously and I don't intend to, cause I know I would be miserable. But I want to have enough faith and trust in myself to not screw up, and even when I do, I don't take it too hard upon myself. I am after all 17, I am still making mistakes and learning, so even if I am trying to hard and wanting things too badly for my own health and safety, I have got to keep a mental note that I am only human. And it is most common to be imperfect. Gosh, I really have to calm my tits. Breathe, Alicia. Just breathe. Labels: insecurities, new year resolution, school is killing me |