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Posted Tuesday, February 05, 2013 // 10:02 pm
But it's okay
 I watched them train themselves for the upcoming SYF, which is now named a stupid long name. They really moved me because their hard work was evident throughout the entire run and you could just tell the time and effort they had put into it to try to match the standards the school has set for them. Our batch really did not give them an easy bar to reach. I saw a lot of new faces, and very few familiar ones. And I hardly appreciated the existence of half the people I recognised. I'm not being mean and neither am I kidding, they do get on my nerves. But I don't HATE them, I just would choose not to be friends with them. One in particular, made me remember the encounter I mentioned earlier. He was never my favourite junior and I know his reputation in school. He was not a BAD kid but he is definitely not a kind person. Well, at least if you think of kind, he is not the person that comes into your mind. I have heard of many past incidents that makes him a bully, but it was mainly because he, and frankly everybody else, was bitchy. This time though, the bitching crossed the line. To tell the story, I need to omit a lot of personal information and disguise them into completely different, separate individuals. I'll do that as I write. So the training was ongoing, and one guy, let's call him Z, was performing very hard, but somehow his anxiety made his performance forced. It was not bad, but it was forced because he was so tensed up and in his head, it showed in his face. The instructor was never his biggest fan so natural, for "the sake of the group and the prize", Z was removed from cast. Here's the thing if you never tried drama/theatre/acting in general, if you are initially casted then later removed, it fucking sucks. It makes you feel insecure because your art is taken away from you before it is fully developed; and it makes you feel like crap because you are not respected of even the chance to prove your art. But it happens, all. The. Time. And you can not compare that feeling with a person who was not even casted, because when you are acting, it is different. It is like pregnancy. Those who are not even pregnant yet but are trying, they still hold on to hope that the baby comes. However, for those robbed their chances of acting, it is basically a miscarriage. The excitement accompanied with the hope that the baby is coming just vanished instantly and sometime, it haunts you till the end of time. But it happens, all. The. Time. Point is, that was what happened to Z. He felt down and unappreciated just as how everybody does when such things happened to them. I met with the bunch after their practice and saw Z not looking particularly happy though I believe it was a good run. And I understood why. So, in a joking manner, I "yelled" at the replacement to tease him and to lighten up Z's mood so he feels less beaten up by what happened earlier. This is when the "encounter" came in. Y, the junior I was talking about before, joined in my "bashing" because he thought I was saying that Z was a bad actor. And when I clarify that I was teasing the replacement, this was what happened: Y: You are talking about Z right?A: No I'm not!Y: Oh. But you have to admit Z was really bad right?A: What? No...And Y turned back his friends to bitch further. Let's just say I never said anyone in Drama Club was a bad actor because I never want to let that go viral and cause anyone in the club to hate me. I most definitely do not think that Z is a bad actor because I never deny hard work. He has substance that can be refined but time robbed that opportunity away from him and I know that he must feel less worthy of himself. It was absolutely unnecessary for one actor, who is aware of such emotions, to criticize another actor because he felt righteous enough of his art to put down another person's. It was uncalled for and rude and I am just really disappointed for that to happen. Crap, this happened one week ago. It is haunting Labels: bullying, drama, syf drama |